As a matter of reflection, today I am participating in What We Learned with Emily P. Freeman. To read what Emily and others learned this Spring, click here.
1. I learned what is on the other side of the death of my child.
She was born and died on March 2nd. Leading up to her birth, I wondered what it would be like on the other side, what I would be like. I think the world is a different place. I am more afraid. I am seeking healing. I need art and beauty in my life like never before.
2. I learned PTSD symptoms can accompany stillbirth.
I chose not to read too much about things leading up to her birth. There have been some very personal triggers that take me back to when she was born. I am working on rewriting her story, to remember how beautiful and grace-filled some of those moments were.
3. I learned my son’s stomach will always feel hard when he cries because all the muscles are engaged.
Thought I knew everything, but I don’t.
4. I learned box cushions are hard to sew!
My goodness! This was not a quick and easy project. It was worth it though, for emotional healing through a project and the beauty of sitting outside on a comfortable couch.
5. I learned colorful elastic works better than ribbon for covering the handle of an Easter basket.
It grips as no ribbon can.
6. I learned the art glass vases I like are from the 1960’s, often made by Viking.
And they are so beautiful! I finally bought one, a flaming bright orange vase.
7. I learned I can not become a therapist in California because my degree does not meet California’s requirements.
Learning this set me free from the burden of wondering and launched me in a new direction that brings me so much joy.
8. I learned outdoor furniture should be put away in wet weather or it could mold.
Learned the hard way…
9. I learned my son is not stable enough for me to work outside the home.
A blessing in disguise.
10. I learned I can be successful as a writer.
Articles sold! Joy experienced.
11. I learned the meaning of Shabbat.
I love the people I meet at UCSF.